I don't like spiders, but I get over that because I fear losing sight of them more than seeing them.
I get nervous walking down dark hallways at night.
I'm afraid of disappointment.
I hate uncertainty; it makes me antsy.
But my biggest fear is fear of The End.
And I don't mean death.
I'm afraid that I will reach my potential. That I'll hit a limit and that's it, there's nowhere to go from here. No growth. I've made it. All that's left is the status quo. Boredom. Stasis.
I fear reaching the dead end of the road. Because where do I go from there?
This is why I shy away from my goals. Because once I have reached them, what then?
This is why I procrastinate. Because deep down I think: I'm growing so much while I do this, where is the room to grow once I finish this task?
(Then I choose a new project. And that's what keeps me sane.)
Failure is my friend, and success is scary. Because I learn more from my mistakes than my accomplishments.
What if life is like a computer game, and someday I'll complete all the missions? Then what?
I fear reaching The End.
There is one thing that never fails to remind me that my worries are groundless.
Trees.
Trees just keep growing. They have a limitless potential for growth. Some trees have been around for thousands of years. The oldest tree in the world is 5,062 years old. It started growing when Pharaoh Narmer united Upper and Lower Egypt and Stonehenge was being built. And it's still growing today. Trees don't have an expiry date. And they don't have a date where they're like, nah, done, time to stop growing.
Trees remind that God is infinite. He has no limit.
And we were created in God's image.
